Would you not do the same? Put yourself in my shoes.
[ Potential for more?
Please. His own family, who are supposed to care about him, don't think he has the potential for anything. He's a trust-fund playboy. A prick. The black sheep. An asshole. On and on. Then there's this guy trying to say he thought Ransom could be more than what he is. ]
I don't believe you for a second. This is who I am.
[ He has to stop what he's doing to respond. ]
The bullshit. The fighting. The constant arguing and picking each other apart. All we do is knock the other person down. Over and over. I won't do it anymore. Think of it as turning over a new leaf. I'm done with the past.
[Charity wasn't something Laurent had any desire to take from anyone. If he earned perks from captivity, at least he could soothe his ego with doing work that was worth something. WHat Ransom did was idle. He looked pretty, spoke nicely, and allowed people to spoil him. He was a giant, lazy child.
And still, Laurent wanted him.]
I would never whore myself out for an easy life Ransom. I do have some pride, unlike you. It's a shame you sell yourself so short though. Just imagine how much more fun we could have if I didn't hate every cell in your body. If you took some responsibility and initiative. I'll bet that's what your grandfather said, isn't it? He wanted you to be more, and you stabbed him for it.
[It was good to dig at the man, even if it wasn't accurate. He honestly hadn't paid that much attention to the intimate details of the man's confession, it had been so stupid to him he hadn't cared much. As if he'd really give a shit about an old man from a world he'd never see!
He scowled at the device in his hand as he read Ransom's words, not quite understanding where the man was going.]
You wish me to treat you nicely? Is that it? And why should I bother to do that? Abusing you keeps you coming back thus far, so why lie to your face about wanting to spend time with you? Or is it something you need from me? Is that it Ransom? You need to hear those sweet, kind words from me to be satisfied? How amusing!
Different set of circumstances and I think you might. You don't hate me. Not really. Do you honestly think I'd keep seeing you if that was the case? I wouldn't. You know that.
My grandfather never thought I was good enough. He made sure I knew that.
I never said you had to be nice. Nice takes time. Especially where we're coming from. But I think you and I can be a lot better than what we are now. Don't you want to know what that feels like? Don't you want to hear those words from me?
I know you know this is just a sick fascination I merely need to work out of my system. And aww, poor Ransom. Your grandsire didn't respect you. I'll bet he never took you into a dark bed and fucked you bloody though.
[He shouldn't have sent that. He shouldn't have sent that! There was no undo on a text message and Laurent's pulse raced as he realized what he'd done, and what he'd potentially revealed. How could he be so stupid!? What was it about Ransom that pushed his buttons so expertly he made mistake after mistake and revealed so much!?
He didn't wait for Ransom to respond, just billed forward. Maybe the man wouldn't read anything into the comment after all.]
If I thought for a moment you felt more than amusement towards me, I'd run screaming. We fuck Ransom. That's all we are to each other. We fuck and snipe and that ought to be enough. The rules don't allow for you to be an ass and fall in love with me, and I certainly don't love you. Be content with what we have or go find someone that's capable of deeper emotions. I'm not your man for that.
[He couldn't afford to be that for Ransom or anyone else. He didn't deserve it either. And Laurent knew without doubt that Ransom could never love him anyway. It simply wasn't possible for either of them.]
You're not capable of more than that Ransom. Why should I put forth a greater effort when you won't? And that's assuming I could stomach even attempting to think kindly of you.
[What the hell did the man want from him? Why was it always circles with Ransom? COuldn't the man just say what he wanted? And no, he'd never give the man that kind of ammunition. Ransom would never let him go with information like that . . .]
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Date: 2020-07-11 02:14 am (UTC)Put yourself in my shoes.
[ Potential for more?
Please. His own family, who are supposed to care about him, don't think he has the potential for anything. He's a trust-fund playboy. A prick. The black sheep. An asshole. On and on. Then there's this guy trying to say he thought Ransom could be more than what he is. ]
I don't believe you for a second.
This is who I am.
[ He has to stop what he's doing to respond. ]
The bullshit.
The fighting. The constant arguing and picking each other apart.
All we do is knock the other person down. Over and over.
I won't do it anymore.
Think of it as turning over a new leaf.
I'm done with the past.
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Date: 2020-07-11 03:35 am (UTC)And still, Laurent wanted him.]
I would never whore myself out for an easy life Ransom. I do have some pride, unlike you. It's a shame you sell yourself so short though. Just imagine how much more fun we could have if I didn't hate every cell in your body. If you took some responsibility and initiative. I'll bet that's what your grandfather said, isn't it? He wanted you to be more, and you stabbed him for it.
[It was good to dig at the man, even if it wasn't accurate. He honestly hadn't paid that much attention to the intimate details of the man's confession, it had been so stupid to him he hadn't cared much. As if he'd really give a shit about an old man from a world he'd never see!
He scowled at the device in his hand as he read Ransom's words, not quite understanding where the man was going.]
You wish me to treat you nicely? Is that it? And why should I bother to do that? Abusing you keeps you coming back thus far, so why lie to your face about wanting to spend time with you? Or is it something you need from me? Is that it Ransom? You need to hear those sweet, kind words from me to be satisfied? How amusing!
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Date: 2020-07-14 03:13 am (UTC)You don't hate me. Not really.
Do you honestly think I'd keep seeing you if that was the case?
I wouldn't. You know that.
My grandfather never thought I was good enough.
He made sure I knew that.
I never said you had to be nice. Nice takes time.
Especially where we're coming from.
But I think you and I can be a lot better than what we are now.
Don't you want to know what that feels like?
Don't you want to hear those words from me?
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Date: 2020-07-16 03:24 am (UTC)[He shouldn't have sent that. He shouldn't have sent that! There was no undo on a text message and Laurent's pulse raced as he realized what he'd done, and what he'd potentially revealed. How could he be so stupid!? What was it about Ransom that pushed his buttons so expertly he made mistake after mistake and revealed so much!?
He didn't wait for Ransom to respond, just billed forward. Maybe the man wouldn't read anything into the comment after all.]
If I thought for a moment you felt more than amusement towards me, I'd run screaming. We fuck Ransom. That's all we are to each other. We fuck and snipe and that ought to be enough. The rules don't allow for you to be an ass and fall in love with me, and I certainly don't love you. Be content with what we have or go find someone that's capable of deeper emotions. I'm not your man for that.
[He couldn't afford to be that for Ransom or anyone else. He didn't deserve it either. And Laurent knew without doubt that Ransom could never love him anyway. It simply wasn't possible for either of them.]
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Date: 2020-07-23 02:48 am (UTC)[ Accidental overshare or something Laurent needed to get off his chest? ]
Wanna talk about it?
I still don't believe you.
Those are my terms.
We can snipe, banter, be mean, but at the end of the day there has to be more than that.
Yes or no?
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Date: 2020-07-23 04:06 am (UTC)[What the hell did the man want from him? Why was it always circles with Ransom? COuldn't the man just say what he wanted? And no, he'd never give the man that kind of ammunition. Ransom would never let him go with information like that . . .]
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Date: 2020-07-24 12:50 am (UTC)Just like that.
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Date: 2020-07-24 03:23 am (UTC)Be blunt for once. What exactly do you want from me Ransom? Tell me that and I'll tell you if we're done.
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Date: 2020-07-26 03:02 am (UTC)But it can't be like it is now.
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Date: 2020-07-26 05:25 am (UTC)Alright.